Happiness…I wanted to work on finding that solid, elusive core to my life and I decided it was happiness. People chase it, name it, find it in other people and circumstance. Some people just have it, but we can all develop happiness in our lives.
As I was getting ready to leave town for our 25th anniversary trip to Hawaii, I was anything but happy: I was busy. And if the devil cannot make you bad he will make you busy. I was cranky and rushed morning, noon and night trying to get everything ready to leave for a week at work and with the kids home alone for a week. Alex and Zak are old enough and capable and we left them money ( a perk for having an adult son in the house), but still I wanted to be the good Mom and have them all set up for success.
We flopped down on the plane like a base runner heading for home in the bottom of the 9th inning and the game is tied! Whew! A full 8 hours of flying with no phones, no internet, no kids, no work, nothing but the hum of the plane. So why was I not feeling more happiness? Sure I was excited to be on our trip, we had been planning 5 years for this very moment! Ron looks over and smiles at me and I smile at him, this is it!
Eight hours later I am tired, but we crawl off the plane and the sun is shining! Hawaii is so beautiful it takes your breath away, especially after a long cold winter in Missouri.
I realize as we drive along the beautiful coast line that I am looking for happiness: I want to find it in the ocean, in the whale spouts we can see along the horizon or even in my sweet husband of 25 years.
We did a day trip on the road to Hana, people kept saying it is the journey not the destination (I think that is on a t shirt somewhere). This trip was truly the destination with waterfalls, twists and turns up the mountain and to the rocky bottom valleys, and back up again. We drove a jeep and had taken the top off to enjoy the sunshine, however there was a moment we quickly put the top back on as the rain came in: it is a rain forest after all. The rain passed and then we took the top off again. Along the journey we had some more surprises, like the water was freezing so jumping into the pool at the bottom of a water fall became a bad idea!
It was truly a metaphor for life. You have a plan, then you have to turn sharply or run off the road. You think you will swim in a crystal clear waterfall and then realize it is not such a good idea. Happiness was not found when we reached the end of our journey. It was found along the way. You could have been really crabby with the other drivers, the turns in the road or the unexpected things that happen, or you could focus on the beauty around you, traveling through life with your best friend at your side.
I cannot chase happiness. I cannot earn it, win it or will it into my life. I can embrace each day and situation with joy and happiness that is firmly planted in my heart that comes from my relationship with Jesus and knowing I am here for a purpose. My purpose it not always easy as Ron’s wife, my kids Mom and CEO of Jordan Essentials. This road is my life and I know at the end of the road is the most beautiful place ever and I will hear my savior say “Well done good and faithful servant. You drove the road well, and enjoyed all that I had for you, now come on in, the water is not too cold.”